"Death is only a chapter
So let's rip out the pages of yesterday Death is only a horizon
And I'm ready for my sun...
I'm ready for my sun to...
I'm ready for my sun... I'm ready for my sun to set
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Vēlos teikt, ka jūtos kā mēsls. Visu pagājušo nedēļu man katru dienu nereāli sāpēja galva, bet temperatūras nebija. Piektdien bija nereāli sūdīgi, bet mierināja fakts, ka tūlīt būs brīvdienas, bet, protams, brīvdienās atpūsties nebija iespējams un visa rezultātā sestdien man palika ļoti slikti, āda kļuva papīra balta un mani pārņēma pilnīgs bezspēks. Svētdien arī bija diezgan sūdīgi, bet nolēmu iet šodien uz skolu, jo gribēju uzrakstīt matemātiku.
Šodien jutos vēl sliktāk nekā vakar, knapi nosēdēju visas astoņas stundas. Tagad visu laiku guļu gultā, jo knapi varu nostāvēt kājās, atkal pārņēmis galīgs nespēks. Jūtos pusdzīva un neviens nevar pateikt, kas īsti man ir. Nezinu, cik ilgi man nāksies gulēt mājās, tikai zinu to, ka vismaz ceturtdien man jāaiziet uz skolu, jo jānodod ZPD tēma, kuras man vēl joprojām nav.
Kopumā es varu teikt, ka man iet pagalam sūdīgi un es jūtos tā, it kā es lēnām izdzistu...
I'm painfully obsessed with music. I listen to music A LOT. When someone says something bad about my favorite bands/musicians I usually take it VERY personal, so better keep your negative opinions to yourself.
In my free time I write poems but I usually don't show them to anyone, because I think they are shit.
I'm a very sad, painfully shy, negative, pessimistic, quiet, often depressed, introvert person and I don't like to show my emotions. My best friend is music, because it can't stab my back and is there for me anytime I need it. Some people say I'm weird, I have problems with my self-esteem. I must admit that they are right. But I also fave good qualities like I'm a very good listener and I can be a very good friend, but only if you want me to, I'm nice, if you're nice to me and I know a lot about music, I can talk about it all day.
I hate the person I see in the mirror. I hate her because she doesn't belong and she is different than others. Nobody understands me and I think no one has ever tried to. I'm indecisive and I trust nobody. It's actually very hard to get my trust, because I don't let people close to me. Maybe I'm just scared of them.