Šodien vandījos pa 'my documents' mapi un meklēju kādu sen rakstītu dzejoli, kuru tā arī neatradu, taču atradu ko tādu, ko vajadzēja publicēt blogā, bet tas kaut kādā dīvainā veidā netika izdarīts.
Tātad... 17. novembrī es esmu uzrakstījusi tekstu, kuru bija plānots publicēt. To tagad pārlasot es sapratu, kāpēc nepublicēju.
Bet tagad sapratu, ka beidzot ir jāpasaka tas, ko jau sen vajadzēja.
"When I decided that letting you go is the only way not to get hurt anymore, it was really hard not to speak to you and get you outta my mind.. It was hard not to think of you like a friend that was really close to me and knew everything about me, and now that friend just doesn't care. I didn't ask for much... just a few texts on skype (at least once a month), maybe a text message or just a nice word on twitter.
But now more than 3 (or maybe more) months have passed and now, when I haven't talked to you for so long, I feel like I'm finally free.. I've let you go and now it's obvious for me that we don't stay in touch anymore, just some messages on birthdays and namedays, that's all. I just realized, that I finally feel so relieved, I have stopped thinking about that, that you have forgotten about me. But don't worry.. I haven't forgotten about you. I read your tweets, skype moods, diary etc. You'll always be in my heart, but in a different way than before.. it will never be the same, like it was in that summer, when I had so much fun with you. Now we just don't have time for each other.
But anyways, I just wanted to say, that I feel so relieved now, when I have stopped worrying about the friendship that has slowly disappeared. It is so good to forget what happened in the past and to move on. I feel much better now"
But now more than 3 (or maybe more) months have passed and now, when I haven't talked to you for so long, I feel like I'm finally free.. I've let you go and now it's obvious for me that we don't stay in touch anymore, just some messages on birthdays and namedays, that's all. I just realized, that I finally feel so relieved, I have stopped thinking about that, that you have forgotten about me. But don't worry.. I haven't forgotten about you. I read your tweets, skype moods, diary etc. You'll always be in my heart, but in a different way than before.. it will never be the same, like it was in that summer, when I had so much fun with you. Now we just don't have time for each other.
But anyways, I just wanted to say, that I feel so relieved now, when I have stopped worrying about the friendship that has slowly disappeared. It is so good to forget what happened in the past and to move on. I feel much better now"
And a sad song to kill you more.
